Lifetime Achievement Goal #3
Friends, it’s such an integral part of our lives. We all would like to believe that we don’t need friends to complete our lives, but we certainly do. After college I’ve realized I don’t have a core group of friends that I truly believe “get me.” I don’t think there is anything wrong with me, however there is something about me that people seem to not want to invest a long term relationship with me and that goes for my love life as well. Looking over my history of friends they all come and go, to say the least they moved on from my friendship.
Lifetime Achievement Goal #3: I want to find my core “ride or die” group friends.
My favorite show is How I Met Your Mother, and I wish I had something as close as the friendships the characters share in this show. I know it’s a TV show, its not exactly real, but it has to exist somewhere…through the random, good, bad, tragic, or life altering moments of their lives, they have someone there to share it with.
And not just for the good times, but the bad times as well. I admit I’m a very closed off person, it’s tough to get to a deeper level with me, probably because I’ve been burned so much by friends in the past. I’m always afraid that I’m going to be so vulnerable to someone and they leave me by myself. I feel that way because that is all i’ve known. It seems that no one needs me as much as I need them.
I am by no means depressed or trying to throw a pity party for myself, i’m simply realizing that i’m getting older and I’m realizing the most important moments of my growth as a person, are not being shared with anyone. I’m definitely in a self-discovery mode of my life, however I constantly crave a relationship with someone who will reciprocate the depth of a real friendship. This is a lifetime achievement goal, it’s not like I want friends right now, its tough to make a real connection with someone, but hopefully one day I’ll find it. For now, i’m going to try doing things on my own, the best relationship is with yourself right? I’m not there yet.